No More

I got some messages of you recently.

Actually
It made me anxious and don't know what to do....

the long hair you keep?
the depression your wore that day?

I really don't know how to solve the problem.
It just haunts me over and over.


I think that it was my fault.
I led you to a definately wrong thought in the begging
and I should not release those words which seemed to be delphic...

Also,I shouldn't be so enthusiastic when I talked to you,

and I was not supposed to be flushed when someone spoke of you
（It may made people think that I just felt shy）

I'm sorry...
But I don't have any other words to tell you aside from this.



I'm used to escaping you for months.
Because I'm afraid that there might have some unnessary sparks after our conversation,
that the concerned phrases may turn into possible mistakes again,
and that the frequent silence between us could result in the embarrassment which had appeared once again


In fact,she and I have discussed this matter many times.
Horever,her contunance with you became confusion gradually.


well,I am in a fog from cover to cover.
But somehow I blame myself more and more strongly for giving you the incorrect idea.

I gave you hope rather than realism,

made you misunderstand the truth instead of expressing my true feelings ,

hurt you deeply before all seemed to "have been well" than letting you know the actuality I felt about you clearly at the very start



I'm always the person who is willing to make people happy
I don't want to cause any trouble
any fights
even any frustration because of me!
Thus,I am very easygoing and very weak to refuse people.
Hoever,I am likely to hurt more people in the result of that.


Especialy you....

I'm sorry ,
genuinely.

I do not dislike you
absulotely not.

But you gave me certain pressure....
Besides,the friends around us made me stressful...

It became a huge force for me
the force which tells me to keep away from you



I hope that the time will wash those embarrassement away some day.
Yet, I forgot that you ARE a person,
a lively person,who just lives over there .

It is not to mention that you're a sufferer caused by me....

I trully feel bad about you .


I'm so self-centered that I overlook your situation....
I have to apologize to you for my thoughtlessness.

But please
take good care of yourself.
You have no idea how many people care about you .

I don't want to hurt you again so I will keep my rules strickly~
You'll have your own way to go and I'll have mine.

And if this will make you somewhat comfortable,I'm afraid that you're not my type.

sorry
but genuine

That's the truth I want to tell you.